a fucked up thing happened today...

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Today i was cleaning my room (I do that about once every 10 years), listening to APC. I was picking some stuff up when I felt an almost irresistable urge to scream. I almost lost it. I started throwing stuff and got really pissed off for no apparent reason.

It was kinda the same thing that happened to me while I was still working in Surrey. I was working, it was raining, i was weed whacking banks, and couldn't keep my footing, my weed whacker was being a bitch, so I nearly beat the shit out of the nearest thing I could find. In this case, a group of barrels that were there for some unapparent reason.

Yeah... same kinda deal. So, here I was, about to beat the shit out of my bed with a metal bar, when I thought to myself... "ed... what the FUCK do you think you're doing?" That little voice saved my bed... I slowly regained some of my sanity. I was still throwing things around, though, it's my way of sorting through stuff. "garbage... not garbage... etc etc." You know how it goes.

Anyway, a question arose in my mind. Am I legally insane? There are times when I question my sanity. This was one of those times. The last time was the aforementioned event in Surrey 3 months ago. Who knows when the next one will hit me.

The question I ask you now is.... Is there a cure? If there is, hook me up. :)
 

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You are NOT BY ANY MEANS INSANE. You are perfectly normal, it's just that your stress level is building up, and you cannot contain it. Just get it all out, but if I were you I would recommend getting a broken piece of electronic equipment and smashing that. I find that much more satisfying; the circuit boards, chips, and transitors go flying everywhere, creating some beautiful carnage.

Works for me...but I feel you should see a shrink, and try to meet someone you will love online. Try eHarmony, Match.com, etc. The perfect soul mate will come, just wait.

I've been here for about the same amount of time as you, and I notice that all you do is wallow in your own shit. You have to go places, meet people, etc. Whatever floats your boat, get out and do. Don't just sit around on your ass eating Krispy Kremes, because that won't get you anywhere.
 

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I've experienced similar moments of completely unprovoked blind fury. Stress can be a total bitch sometimes. There have been times I've woken up in the middle of the night screaming in anger and wanting to destroy everything within 10 feet of me.
 

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Descent said:
You are NOT BY ANY MEANS INSANE. You are perfectly normal, it's just that your stress level is building up, and you cannot contain it. Just get it all out, but if I were you I would recommend getting a broken piece of electronic equipment and smashing that. I find that much more satisfying; the circuit boards, chips, and transitors go flying everywhere, creating some beautiful carnage.

I love carnage. I just need something else to smash with a metal bar instead of my bed. I've been dismantling an old bed (not mine) for the past half hour. I like breaking things.

Works for me...but I feel you should see a shrink, and try to meet someone you will love online. Try eHarmony, Match.com, etc. The perfect soul mate will come, just wait.

I've never been to those sites. I don't seem to need them. I have recently "met" somebody via another site. It's a fucked up world it is :)

I've been here for about the same amount of time as you, and I notice that all you do is wallow in your own shit. You have to go places, meet people, etc. Whatever floats your boat, get out and do. Don't just sit around on your ass eating Krispy Kremes, because that won't get you anywhere.

I hate krispy kreme. Last time I went there, I felt like shit for a week. I like Tim Horton's... a donut shop that none of you have heard of cause it's a Canadian thing :) .

But, you are correct. I've always longed to go out... see places... meet people... do that stuff. But, I don't have enough money, I don't have a job, I don't have a driver's licence. Once I get those three things fixed, I most certainly will make like a bat out of hell and leave this town.

sinamon said:
eh he dont need those sites >.<
hehe

is da troof :)
 

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Unforgiven said:
But, you are correct. I've always longed to go out... see places... meet people... do that stuff. But, I don't have enough money, I don't have a job, I don't have a driver's licence. Once I get those three things fixed, I most certainly will make like a bat out of hell and leave this town.


Hell yah...make like a bat out of hell and head to Georgia...=D
 

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You've finally gone insane! :thumbsup: I've been insane for some time now...It's fun! Always people to talk to...even when no ones there... :)
 

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I hate the FCC said:
You've finally gone insane! :thumbsup: I've been insane for some time now...It's fun! Always people to talk to...even when no ones there... :)

The voices in my head have always told me i'm crazy.

So I'd get in long arguments with them about why I wasn't crazy.
 

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Unforgiven said:
Today i was cleaning my room (I do that about once every 10 years), listening to APC. I was picking some stuff up when I felt an almost irresistable urge to scream. I almost lost it. I started throwing stuff and got really pissed off for no apparent reason.

It was kinda the same thing that happened to me while I was still working in Surrey. I was working, it was raining, i was weed whacking banks, and couldn't keep my footing, my weed whacker was being a bitch, so I nearly beat the shit out of the nearest thing I could find. In this case, a group of barrels that were there for some unapparent reason.

Yeah... same kinda deal. So, here I was, about to beat the shit out of my bed with a metal bar, when I thought to myself... "ed... what the FUCK do you think you're doing?" That little voice saved my bed... I slowly regained some of my sanity. I was still throwing things around, though, it's my way of sorting through stuff. "garbage... not garbage... etc etc." You know how it goes.

Anyway, a question arose in my mind. Am I legally insane? There are times when I question my sanity. This was one of those times. The last time was the aforementioned event in Surrey 3 months ago. Who knows when the next one will hit me.

The question I ask you now is.... Is there a cure? If there is, hook me up. :)


who is apc?
why do you call yourself ed?

sanity is only something that insane people dont wonder if they have.
the rest of us question it.
and its overrated anyways.
 

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dustinzgirl said:
who is apc?
why do you call yourself ed?

sanity is only something that insane people dont wonder if they have.
the rest of us question it.
and its overrated anyways.

APC=A Perfect Circle.

I call myself ed because that's what other people have called me throughout the years.

why? you'll have to ask them
 

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Unforgiven said:
APC=A Perfect Circle.

I call myself ed because that's what other people have called me throughout the years.

why? you'll have to ask them













i think you should stop listening to crap music, that might help. put in some good old suicidal tendancies, some slayer, and loose the apc.

and those people are liars, your name is unforgiven, ed is just your pretend name...lol...
 

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dustinzgirl said:
i think you should stop listening to crap music, that might help. put in some good old suicidal tendancies, some slayer, and loose the apc.

and those people are liars, your name is unforgiven, ed is just your pretend name...lol...

i happen to like apc.
 

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dustinzgirl said:
That would mean you are not only insane, but insane with poor taste. :D

what's poor taste to you might not be poor taste to me :)

the kind of music a person listens to does not define who he/she is.

APC, Tool, RATM, 3 doors down, some bon jovi, kansas, nazareth, sublime, and much, much more.

does that make me a loser? :)
 

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Unforgiven said:
what's poor taste to you might not be poor taste to me :)

the kind of music a person listens to does not define who he/she is.

APC, Tool, RATM, 3 doors down, some bon jovi, kansas, nazareth, sublime, and much, much more.

does that make me a loser? :)


not a loser because you have bon jovi in there.

but, yeah, pretty much.

Im just kidding I dont think you are a loser at all. But I do think that you think that you are a loser because you do not behave in the manner that your family thinks you should.

But, I think you are a nice person and a good friend.

So fuck them anyways.
 

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dustinzgirl said:
not a loser because you have bon jovi in there.

but, yeah, pretty much.

Im just kidding I dont think you are a loser at all. But I do think that you think that you are a loser because you do not behave in the manner that your family thinks you should.

But, I think you are a nice person and a good friend.

So fuck them anyways.

thanks, DG.

I'm not a loser. I'm starting to realize that now.

There are some things, however, that I cannot forget and cannot forgive.

Not even 10 years after they occurred.
 

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I know how you feel. There used to be this one girl... I won't go into details, but she did some fucked up stuff to me. For like a year after I stopped talking to her, I wanted to scream and cry and beat and get beaten all at the same time.

It's okay. Imperfection is what makes us human. Overcoming imperfection is what makes us good people.

:thumbsup: