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Depression

magnolia

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Ok, I have a history of depression. It's partly from a chemical imbalance. I decided to get off my meds and have been for about a month and a half. Now I have to go back on them. Not just cuz I feel like shit and don't want to go to class or even just get out of bed, but cuz my mom is sick of paying for missed appts. and sick of me being a "bitch" around the house. So today I called up my psychiatrist and I can't get in to see him until mid Jan. Same with my therapist. So I'm screwed cuz one of my meds I have to go back on gradually under the care of a doctor. So I've decided to call in refills on my one med and wait to start the other until I can see my doc. I hate this. I hate being dependant on meds to be able to function. I wish there was another way. It seems like no matter how good things are going I still can't snap out of my depression. This just sucks. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to deal with it.

Oh, and to top it off, when i went in and told my psych. that I was going off em he said, ok, but ppl with emotional disorders like urs have a 50/50 chance of getting off and staying off and I don't think u'll do too well off them. Fuck, now I have to go in and be like, u were right. Now drug me up again.
 

_Kitana_

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magnolia said:
Ok, I have a history of depression. It's partly from a chemical imbalance. I decided to get off my meds and have been for about a month and a half. Now I have to go back on them. Not just cuz I feel like shit and don't want to go to class or even just get out of bed, but cuz my mom is sick of paying for missed appts. and sick of me being a "bitch" around the house. So today I called up my psychiatrist and I can't get in to see him until mid Jan. Same with my therapist. So I'm screwed cuz one of my meds I have to go back on gradually under the care of a doctor. So I've decided to call in refills on my one med and wait to start the other until I can see my doc. I hate this. I hate being dependant on meds to be able to function. I wish there was another way. It seems like no matter how good things are going I still can't snap out of my depression. This just sucks. Oh well, I guess I'll just have to deal with it.

Oh, and to top it off, when i went in and told my psych. that I was going off em he said, ok, but ppl with emotional disorders like urs have a 50/50 chance of getting off and staying off and I don't think u'll do too well off them. Fuck, now I have to go in and be like, u were right. Now drug me up again.
Maggie, the imporant thing here was that you tired. You had faith in yourself enough to at least TRY. You should be proud of it and your doctor will understand. Perhasp this was not the right time to jump off your meds. Have a bit more faith maggie... Just do whats best for you at this time and wait till you are more sure of yourself. (I don't know enough at your problem. But a 50/50 chance is not bad. Just got to get the timing down)

Good Luck!
 

VenomHowell

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I agree with Kit on this one. Congrats for at least trying, but give it some time and try again really. I wish the best for you, as I'd wish the best for anyone... Fellow ranters and cynics alike deserve my support :D
 

skylinec

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I don't take meds of any kind (i'm aginst medical drugs) I've never been depressed really badly. But I would think it would be hard to keep it up. But try to keep the meds off, But if you can't go back on. all i can say.
 

TwisT

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_Kitana_ said:
Maggie, the imporant thing here was that you tired. You had faith in yourself enough to at least TRY. You should be proud of it and your doctor will understand. Perhasp this was not the right time to jump off your meds. Have a bit more faith maggie... Just do whats best for you at this time and wait till you are more sure of yourself. (I don't know enough at your problem. But a 50/50 chance is not bad. Just got to get the timing down)

Good Luck!
Sorry But I disagree!!! First let me say that any type of depression sucks and I am on your side Mag. But try????? WTF, are you gonna try??? You have a disorder that will not go away by runnin down to the pet store and buying a new puppy! There is a problem and you know that you can't handle it with out your medication, so why bother?? Do you get to a point while on your meds that you feel good enough to take over on your own, thinking that maybe this time or these new drugs may have solved your problem....

Not tryin to be a dick here..
 

Broken

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Mag you have all the tools to change your path into whatever you wish. Don't Give yourself the time to be depressed. Change what you want to and run the rest up the flag pole.


Go Get it. Don't sit back.. Don't give yourself up so easy.
 

magnolia

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See, it's a chemical imbalance for me though. It's a physical thing. It's not just like I look at life and say, oh it's shit and focus on the bad parts. Things have been going great and I couldn't feel shittier. Plus, today my mom called in my Rx and said, u're taking them. I had already been thinking about going back on them. It's a physical thing and it needs physical care.

and Twist, I feel like that a lot when i'm on my meds. That's the main reason I stopped taking them. But a month and a half later I'm the same way I was before I ever got any care. It sucks the big one.
 

gurlgonewild

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more power to you woman!

i can tell you, it can be done. by sheer will and if you are willing to deal with the consequences like those you are experiencing now. and of course, risk your life.

what i want to know is this, (if you don't mind)
before you went on meds did you feel as bad as you do now while trying to get off of them? or is your condition exascerbated by withdrawal?

you can always try again. sometimes you grow out of it. depending.
 

magnolia

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gurlgonewild said:
i can tell you, it can be done. by sheer will and if you are willing to deal with the consequences like those you are experiencing now. and of course, risk your life.

what i want to know is this, (if you don't mind)
before you went on meds did you feel as bad as you do now while trying to get off of them? or is your condition exascerbated by withdrawal?

you can always try again. sometimes you grow out of it. depending.
My depression was horrible before meds. I didn't even talk. It was bad. It's getting that way w/o my meds.
 

gurlgonewild

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TwisT said:
Do you get to a point while on your meds that you feel good enough to take over on your own, thinking that maybe this time or these new drugs may have solved your problem....
dude its the meds which make people feel like they are cured. so they stop taking them and find out they're not. its a sickness in some cases where for instance, insane people are only insane because they think they're getting better. i dunno, its really tough to explain. (not saying mags insane!)
 

gurlgonewild

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magnolia said:
My depression was horrible before meds. I didn't even talk. It was bad. It's getting that way w/o my meds.
oic. why i never went on them is because i do not want to become dependent. yeah life is shitty, and people think i'm being a bitch at times, etc but i have heard horror stories about those things. like being in a constant fog, etc. scared me. i'd rather be sad than have no feelings whatsoever. just me-

GL
 
#12
well i know what its like being on meds and shit for depression so it probably was fucking hard to do what you did and yea you should probably go bac on those meds just because you were put on them to help with the depression just like me. i give you all the props you can get for what you tried at least you got balls
 

Smoke

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Mag, you should know that I'm always here if you need someone to talk to. :thumbsup: ;)
 

TwisT

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gurlgonewild said:
dude its the meds which make people feel like they are cured. so they stop taking them and find out they're not. its a sickness in some cases where for instance, insane people are only insane because they think they're getting better. i dunno, its really tough to explain. (not saying mags insane!)
Duh! You Quoted what I said!
 
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I have always been opposed to medication(and it shows by my general insanity), but lately I've been starting to reconsider. I feel like I have three or four different people living in my head with all the opinions I keep throwing out. I need to pick one to stay, and I need some help doing that.
 

Bael

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Mag, when I'm depressed I find the best thing to do is make irresponsible, rash descisions without thinking of the consequences. Like for instance I was once depressed because my best friend was killed in a car crash, so what did I do? I went and joined the military and by the time basic training was over I was so fucking glad to be out of that shithole that you could shit on my chest and I would tell you "that's an outstanding piece of shit, may I have another?".

So here's my shitty advice. Go join the Marine Corps, get in the best shape of your life [sound body = sound mind] get a shitty job working your ass off 16 hours a day and you won't have time to be depressed. I noticed in your profile you are a child care provider. If I had to do that job I would pull my damn hair out and punch myself in the nuts.

good luck