Okay, I'd describe myself as manic depressive. Sortof. Anyway, one day without my meds and I'm all, I wanna just roll over and die, bla bla bla. Well, I talk to my boyfriend every night on msn and he's so worried about me. I feel like a shit. I know that I worry him and I know that it hurts him. I told him that I'd never actually go through with any of my plans, but he still worrys so much. I feel like I'm a child and he has to take care of me. He always tries to help me remember to take my meds and stuff. I just feel....so stupid about the whole thing. Why can't I just be normal? Why do I have to be so damn dependant on my meds? I hate it! I hate knowing that I hurt him and I hate feeling like a child. At least he takes care of me.