Alright, here's what I have to say: Because of what happened to me on DeviantArt so far in 11 months, I've been feeling depressed and down with anxiety and illness..
Here's why I am anxious and haunted:
- People cyberbullied me and harrassed me for my actions.
- They accused me of breaking the rules: Tracing art and pedophilia activity (I learned my lesson on not to do pedophilia activity and I draw my own artwork via materials I use..)
- Because of the drama that I didn't intend to cause, people bullied me..
- I was willing to move on and apologize, but due to hatred that I've been receiving and people bringing me down, I was getting more and more afraid to do so..
- The people who first forgave me were false friends and all they did was betrayed me..
- One user is mocking me very horribly and one is boasting about video editing
- So much hate that I've been receiving on Curious Cat, Fanfiction.NET, GameBoards, Tumblr, YouTube and this website is the reason why I was forced to go on hiatus on YouTube and be not active much on some sites such as ToonZone, Newgrounds and Twitch..
- Few of the watchers that I watched didn't paid attention to my hopes and dreams and I was mostly neglected..
- The role models I used to love didn't love me and were awfully mean to me about my fan suggestions..
- I was afraid most of a time to express my emotions unless I write and/or draw vents because people always harrassed me for them
- More of my haters called me "Becky this" and "Becky that" and were very hypocritical..
- Users never paid attention to me when I asked for help or when I asked for commissions since I was mostly broke..
I even had to deal with real life problems..
To all of the haters on DeviantArt:
Thank you all for ruining my reputations and my Swaggie personality..
Look what you've done to my life inside and outside that goddamn website..
All I wanted is to start fresh and be confident for the future when I joined here on September 23rd..
But what I got now is a total mess and you guys spat it on my face..
I was depressed and I thought that I could rant and vent on this website so I decide to do this..
Also, I'm a cartoon artist and graphic art designer who is also a voiceover artist and music composer.
Please, go ahead and express your opinions, but you should know that I draw very well and I can draw this digitally if trolls keep on harrassing me..
I've done some things that are naughty, but I learned my lesson of not to do that shit..