I am sooo sick of relationships!!! First off this love bullshit is all fuckin fake. Lets say like me you fall inlove...shit happens! How do you know that you can trust someone completely not to cheat on you? I sure as hell can't. My boyfriend had now cheated on me a totally of 5 times. Why do I keep taking him back...lets see...I LOVE HIM! Why would I let him hurt me like this cause I think that if I love him and he loves me he will change and say what he does, for once. Well I was wrong, yet again. Even more, I spent the whole weekend with him...you know cuddled, had sex, told me he loved him and that he would never do anything to hurt what we had cause has had to lose me before and he would never do that again. "His lil ray of hope"...thats what he called me before I left that tueday morning...to have him cheat on me that fuckin night. With a lil hooche that he had told me said he was cute and he made sure she knew he had a girlfriend. Lots of good that did me. The fucker wasn't even going to call me and tell me about it either! I had to call him up and his bestfriend/my bestfriend convinced him it was the only right thing to do. Oh...to top all this off this friday I was suppose to go to a party but I can't cause I am going out of town...YEA well she is going to be there w/ him. FUCK HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!! and FUCK my so called friend that fuckin betrayed me. The hooche was even my friend's friend the one that got her in the same room as my very unfaithful love/ Hoey joey...yea it was him. The good ol' best friend that said he would kick Joey's ass if he messed around on me again. Well fuckin bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!! :gun: I have decided I want him dead...cause if he is dead I will only hurt for a lil while then I won't have to keep greiving...CAUSE he won't be here. Kinda pshyco but I wouldn't do it...however I really want to!