I have a massive headache for the second day in a row. I have applied for job after job with no response whatsoever. My ex keeps trashing the house. My kid is teething and won't let go of me for too long. My estranged father has decided that the holidays would be a great time to try and start crap with me. The eight year anniversary of my brothers death is on the tenth. My sister in law won't let me see my nieces. I have a single friend I hang out with. The only upside is this person that has stepped up and tries his best to make me smile. But it gets hard to focus on the two good things in my life when everything keeps piling up. I am losing my hair almost by the handfuls. I keep forgetting words that I shouldn't forget. My hands keep curling up and going numb. I have times where my balance goes and I fall over. I pass out at random. None of the doctors I visit can figure out what's going on with me. My blood pressure drops at random and I can't stay awake when it does. I don't know what to do besides vent on here. I don't like to tell my problems to friends because I don't want to annoy them. I don't tell mom because I don't want her to be disappointed or bother her. I am so emotionally drained from all the crap that's gone on this year. I am about to lose it.