Everyone seems to be "in the click" except me, all these community things I don't know about, and these parties I'm not invited to, and any kind of activitie I'm left out of pisses me off. Everyone in my school is just a big group of friends, excluding me. I fucking am sick of everyone knowing these retarded inside jokes and then there I am just going through the high school day.. I only have a couple best friends. Now you might be saying, "Get in the click, make new friends meet new people." But all of these people, are fucking retards. They are so immature its amazing and their lives depend on their reputation so much that if they lost their rep, then they'd totally flip out or something.. It's not like I'm looked at badly, well, maybe by ex's and their friends, but I'm just a neutral person, but I'm sick of it, I haven't been in a good relationship in a while and that also pisses me off. I have a rough plan of what I want to do with my life, but it's all based on my musical talent, and I'm just hoping thats good enough. Right now I just look at these people and think to myself, once high school is over, their not going to have much, sure they have all their friends now, but they will have to make new ones and move on.. I just wish I could have the experience of having a good time NOW.. I just wish I could go to a new school for like, just a fucking week or something, to start somewhere new that no one would know a thing about me, so they couldn't judge me.. That's why I've been pushing my dad to do this whole florida idea with him opening an office down there and me living with him.. I'm going to try and convince my parents to let me go to the school in the next town or something next year, just to get away from it all.. It really sucks here, its so pessimistic it's unbelievable.. EVERYONE puts you down.. People wonder why I like to be alone, well, it's because I hate where I live, I hate the people, and I hate everything about this whole community.. Cumberland Maine and Greely High School have to be the gayest places.. I just don't know how to cope with it.. I'm really wanting to go to a new school..