Alright, I'm in this relationship. He's a wonderful person. He loves me and treats me well. Like a princess. He helps to lift me up when I'm down and he's always there for me. But for some reason, I'm really struggling with weather I'm truley in love with him. My mom wants me to see other ppl too. She thinks that I should date others even though I'm with my bf becuase he lives far away and she told me that that shouldn't stop you from going out with someone else. (Now, when my mom was dating my dad, she also had two other out of town relationships.) I don't know what to do. I prayed last night for a long time, and this morning I woke up with a revelation that we shouldn't be bf &bgf, just friends. It makes me sad. Also, in a book that I'm reading, the main character married someone she didn't love becuase he was going home and she didn't want to loose her good friend. Is that what I'm doing with him? Am I staying with him because I want that security blanket so to speak? I want to tell him all of this, but it would break his heart. I know that he's going to read this anyway, but I need to know. I need to get this off my chest. I like him as a person and respect and trust him; but is that enough? If we stay together, is he someone that I could spend the rest of my life with and be happy? I don't know. I have so many questions and concerns. Am I really as ready for all of this as I thought that I was?