He isnt really my boyfriend, but we're friends. Well, here, I'll catch you up.
I've liked this guy since 6th grade. And this year (9th grade), I've just come to like him so much more, that I'm close to considering it being "in love". I think about him constantly and are so greatful that we're even friends. But he has a girlfriend, other wise I would of made a move.. this year we have gotten to be really good friends, infact, best friends. Which led to us doing some stuff, and him breaking up with his girlfriend and going out with me, but only for like a couple days. He ended up dumping me for her. But anyways...
Lately our friendship has been so fucked up. He's always depressed over what seems like nothing (and sometimes is nothing)... and I can understand that, I get like that from time to time myself. But he just does it constantly every time I talk to him, except for in school... in which he is the happiest guy in the world. And I know him, he would not be able to hide if he was depressed. So I feel like there's something he's not telling me to make him "so depressed" after schools and stuff. and It just bothers me, and upsets me. It makes me feel like he doesnt want to be friends anymore, as if i'm just this annoying girl trying to interupt into his personal life. And if thats true I wish he would just tell me, becuase I'm sick of having to be confused over this and not knowing what to do.
The other day my friend Jenn and this girl Bianca were trying to get a bottle drink or something out of his sweater pocket. So when I was walking by them, they were like "come help us!" so i reached into his pocket and it wasnt there, so out of confusion I was like "where the fuck is it?" and BIanca was like "its up his ass!" and like i just laughed and was like "woooah I'm not going up there!" and so i kept walking my way, and i heard Bianca whisper to Robert "I bet she would" and i heard him whisper back "yea I know she would." It seems like a stupid thing for me to be posting about, but it hurt. When he doesnt like his friends anymore, he starts badmouthing them behind their backs. And that is what I've been afraid of happening for a while. And hearing that just made me upset.
So now I've just been ignoring him. And when ever he talks to me and asks me what's wrong, I flip out on him and tell him to fuck off, or to die in hell. I dont know if he's gotten the hint that I'm pissed at him. If not then I'll just have to fucking tell him flat out. *sigh* I dont want to lose him as a friend, he used to always be there for me and I would always be the person he confided in. But if he's not liking my friendship anymore, then I just have to accept that fact and move on...
I've liked this guy since 6th grade. And this year (9th grade), I've just come to like him so much more, that I'm close to considering it being "in love". I think about him constantly and are so greatful that we're even friends. But he has a girlfriend, other wise I would of made a move.. this year we have gotten to be really good friends, infact, best friends. Which led to us doing some stuff, and him breaking up with his girlfriend and going out with me, but only for like a couple days. He ended up dumping me for her. But anyways...
Lately our friendship has been so fucked up. He's always depressed over what seems like nothing (and sometimes is nothing)... and I can understand that, I get like that from time to time myself. But he just does it constantly every time I talk to him, except for in school... in which he is the happiest guy in the world. And I know him, he would not be able to hide if he was depressed. So I feel like there's something he's not telling me to make him "so depressed" after schools and stuff. and It just bothers me, and upsets me. It makes me feel like he doesnt want to be friends anymore, as if i'm just this annoying girl trying to interupt into his personal life. And if thats true I wish he would just tell me, becuase I'm sick of having to be confused over this and not knowing what to do.
The other day my friend Jenn and this girl Bianca were trying to get a bottle drink or something out of his sweater pocket. So when I was walking by them, they were like "come help us!" so i reached into his pocket and it wasnt there, so out of confusion I was like "where the fuck is it?" and BIanca was like "its up his ass!" and like i just laughed and was like "woooah I'm not going up there!" and so i kept walking my way, and i heard Bianca whisper to Robert "I bet she would" and i heard him whisper back "yea I know she would." It seems like a stupid thing for me to be posting about, but it hurt. When he doesnt like his friends anymore, he starts badmouthing them behind their backs. And that is what I've been afraid of happening for a while. And hearing that just made me upset.
So now I've just been ignoring him. And when ever he talks to me and asks me what's wrong, I flip out on him and tell him to fuck off, or to die in hell. I dont know if he's gotten the hint that I'm pissed at him. If not then I'll just have to fucking tell him flat out. *sigh* I dont want to lose him as a friend, he used to always be there for me and I would always be the person he confided in. But if he's not liking my friendship anymore, then I just have to accept that fact and move on...
