I knew this guy from school who i was quite good mates with. we both went through tough break ups and sorted eachother out when we were down. then one night we ended up sleeping together. it was great. we ended up goign out.im quite depressed atm and at the time i was drinking shitloads of whiskey havin loads of piss ups and getting stoned all the time. in this time i managed to totaly fuck things up with us, i never cheated on him but we were on and off all the time, and whenever i was drunk id end up pulling someone or doing summat really stupid. i basically played wth this guy s emotions and i dont even know why, because i was so drunk at the time , i dont know what thought processes made me end up doing all these stupid things. anyway, when it got to the point that we got drunk on my birthday, i asked him out again, then he found me five minutes later kissing someone else, i stopped drinking flat out. and from that day nothing stupid happened again. tht was five months ago now,and we are very close, it hasnt seemed to infuence our relationship until now. all the things i did at the beggining of the relationship is starting to affect my boyfriend. the other night he said he wasnt sure if we could work anymore. i know he still loves me and needs to forgive me in his own way, but i dont know how to act while hes feelign like this. we have something really special, we both know that, and i dont want to blow things by not letting him deal with this in his own way. he could end up breaking up with me, but if i knew how to deal with how he was feeling then id feel like i did everything i could. from a guys point of view, should i try to talk about this with him, or should i let him sort it out in his head? i know what ive written makes me seem like a total ho, but its so out of character for me and thats why i feel so bad about it.