Sibireus said:Life sucks an then you die?
Now that I'm 16 and have some basic understanding of what this world is really like, I ask myself, "Now what"? Everyone has to find their path in life, and the only problem is that for some people it's more difficult than for the others. I'm one of them.
About me. A guy, 16 years old. My family has moved to Norway when I was 12, so I had to start at an International School because English was the only language I could speak, not counting my mother tongue. The level at which they teach you is much lower than at my old school, so in 4 years it has been made impossible for me to go back to my country and study like the rest, I've gone too far behind them.
A language has been a problem as well. In Russia, where I lived before I had to study 3 languages - Russian, English and German. Mostly because of my German teacher being a fucking retard i forgot the whole thing in about 2 weeks. Then here in Norway I has to study 2 more - Norwegian and French. Of course it's been quite tough so even now I can't speak fluid Norwegian, which makes it impossible for me to communicate with people normally.
I am lazy, but whenever it comes to doing something interesting, something that i like, I'm unstoppable. I don't hate school, i just always thought that it's not worth spending too much time studying and doing all that homework bullshit. I tried to do all the homework at school, never studied for the tests, but nevertheless got good grades. I simply could not be bothered to revise for any of my final grade 10 exams. My grades were okay, but not good enough to get into the next International Education level shit.
I am quite sporty, like to bike, roller blade, I played hockey for 3 years, gone to a karate section for 4 years. Probably, life in Norway has changed me the most. I started to like punk rock (blink 182, sum 41, etc), stopped watching TV. I don't give a shit about what's happening out there. I live with the present, not the past, and don't try to look into the future too much. I hate trends, fashion and other bullshit like that. I like to read fantasy books, I enjoy watching sci-fi, fantasy and teen movies.
My parents are different. They are extremely old-fashioned, none of them even know how to send a fucking sms from a mobile phone. They hate the movies I watch, hate the music I listen. They are both cleaning freaks. They don't understand that playing computer games is fun. I've went to see a movie in the cinema with them only once, and they both said it sucked. My mom loves me, but sometimes it goes too far, she just cares wat TOO MUCH about me. Brush your teeth, make the bed, do this, do that - that kind of shit goes on every day. My dad is okay, except for most of the times he talks to me is to criticize me. Otherwise he only talks to me when he's in good mood.
Maybe I spent a bit too much time at the computer, having to run and look after a several sites. My parent's don't like that either.
Now my parent's business isn't going well, so we might be moving back to Russia any time. And that is when I ask myself, what the fuck am i supposed to do? My habits, my personality, my favors and dislikes, of that shit has been formed here in Norway. The life in Russian is just completely different from what I am used to. I won't be able to study like everyone else because of the Russian programme is way higher than in Norwegian school. I don't have any friends there. I feel empty, i don't know what to do, what to expect and what too look for. Every single day is a junction, when one thing can happen to change everything.
You'd ask, why am I writing this? Simply because around me there is not single person that fully understands the situation I'm in. My friends only care about daily things, what food they eat, how they look, etc. And I know that telling your problems to someone makes you feel better.
Also, I'd like to ask for advise. What would you do in my situation?
Well, that's about it. Sorry all my moaning being so long, I just had to get this shit over with.