As some of you know, i'm in an internet relationship... yeah, everything's going good and stuff...
but lately, it seems i've been falling deeper and deeper into a pit of self pity, dragging her down with me. i say stuff that i don't really mean, i say stuff that i don't know if i mean or not... she tries to help me, and she does. a lot. but i make her feel bad. i make myself feel bad... even if i don't want to.
she has faith in me, where i keep none for myself. i just feel so... hopeless at times. i figure i've been talking like that too much lately, sort of driving her away. i don't know... i just need help.
but lately, it seems i've been falling deeper and deeper into a pit of self pity, dragging her down with me. i say stuff that i don't really mean, i say stuff that i don't know if i mean or not... she tries to help me, and she does. a lot. but i make her feel bad. i make myself feel bad... even if i don't want to.
she has faith in me, where i keep none for myself. i just feel so... hopeless at times. i figure i've been talking like that too much lately, sort of driving her away. i don't know... i just need help.