Ever since i can remember I've been large. Hell, I'll be honest. I was always fat. I've always known it, and I've always been told it. So obviously, I grew up with some issues. If I eat, I want to get it out of me, but if I were to do that, i'd feel bad because ur not suppost to do that. So if I leave it, i feel horrible cuz I feel like I'm just gadda get fatter and fatter. I'd just stop eating all together, except that I'm an emotional eater. If I'm bored, I eat, if I'm sad, I eat, if I'm pissed off, I eat. I'm just so sick of food! I'm sick of hating how I look! I hate how my brother pokes me and teases me for having a few extra lbs. Just cuz he has a six pack and runs 12 miles a day doesn't mean that I do too. I'm tired of my mom saying little things like, "Are u sure u want to wear that out? It looks a little tight." Or short. Or whatever. No matter what anyone ever says to me, I'll always think I'm just a huge fat monster who is ugly as sin. I hate it all. I think I need to go do something. Thanks for reading this.